Diaries April- September 2005

Ok, you thought the last lot were angsty? Late 2004 was when I discovered emo, so 2005 was filled with the finest emo sentiments. Grammar and spelling has been left intact, but by now I was 16, so I doubt there's too much embarrassment in terms of the English language! 

 By the way, when I was taking photos, I overlooked the little butterfly one. It's actually from 2003, so I'll add it in now quickly. Excuse the brief slip in chronology but it is the most mortifying, excrutiating diary so enjoy!

Esmée-Lola (14th June 2003- 4th August 2003)

"A bit about me:
I hope that one day I'll be famous for my diary like Anne Frank or Samuel Pepes. You're my 4th diary. The first was Cally, for 3 years; My second Emma-Rae, for 8 months; and my last was Tallulah, who lasted 5 months. I hope you will be as faithful to me as they were.
I have mousy blonde/brown short curly hair, and small "antique-brown" glasses. I'm 15 today, and have fancied Chris for 21 months".

14th June 2003:
"I'm ugly: fat belly + thighs, frizzy hair, glasses, wonky teeth,...; my "friends" never invite me out ANYWHERE! (not even to their houses); I'm going to fail all but 2 GCSE's, EVERYTHING, basically"
I left school with 8 GCSEs A*-B and a C. I'm not sure why I thought I was going to fail. 

15th June 2003:
"This is funny- NOT! Jamie (well I don't know who else it would be so I assume it's Jamie) has written my name on the bannister, so who does Mummy reckon it is? Me, of course! Yeah, because I'm stupid enough to write my own name onto it. I keep making my point (ie: I'M NOT STUPID!), but does anyone believe me? Nope!"

5th July 2003:
"As much as I try to convince myself I don't, I think I'm falling for him. Why else would I give him my watch as an excuse to talk to him, or watch him doing PE out of the window during German?"

24th July 2003
"To be honest, if I didn't get an A in English, I'd feel like such a failure! I've got "a gift" according to my teacher. I just don't find it hard- I don't even have to think; I just write whatever comes into my head."

Gerard (24th April 2005- 1st July 2005)

"A bit about me:
I'm sixteen years old and studying 3D art, graphic design, tudor history and English literature A-levels. I have brown hair naturally, but I like to dye it. At the moment it's a dodgy pale-pink-terracotta colour where the hot pink's faded, but next week sometime it'll be black. I have purple emo glasses and braces. As soon as they come off, I'm getting my lip pierced with a silver ring on the left hand side at the bottom. 
I would describe myself as an emo-punk. My favourite bands are My Chemical Romance, Green Day and The Used. I'm hoping to go to Download Festival in June to see MCR + The Used, and nine days later I'll be seeing Green Day. Yay!"

Saturday 30th April 2005:
"You're named, of course, after the devastatingly sexy Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance"

Tuesday 10th May 2005:
"Well, things got more interesting after that last entry! *Mega Row*!!"

Saturday 14th May 2005:
"I have such a cool outfit- my stripy socks, fishnets, a skirt with a ripped, frayed hem, black vest, studded belt, arm warmers and nail varnish. It looks so cool!"

Tuesday 17th May 2005:
"Gurneet looked so good today! He had his holey ear tunnel in (as opposed to the filled in one) and it looked so cool! I'm thinking of getting a small tunnel done, but it's kind of permanent, so I dunno. And if I want to be a primary school teacher..."

Sunday 29th May 2005:
"Earlier, I logged onto Kerry's Faceparty account and punctuated her profile. It might sound petty but it really annoys me. There are no full stops or anything."

Frankie (2nd July 2005- 24th September 2005)

"A bit about me:
I am seventeen years old and studying A-levels in 3D art, graphic design and English literature. I have naturally brown, curly hair, but I like to dye it. It's been bright pink in the past, and is currently black. I wear purple emo glasses and braces. As soon as they come off, I'm getting my lip pierced. And then probably my nose. I have my ears pierced four times. 
I would describe myself as an emo-punk. My favourite bands are My Chemical Romance, The Used and Green Day, all of whom I have seen (and I've met My Chemical Romance!). I am going to see MCR for the third time in November with Amy, and I can't wait!"

Sunday 10th July 2005
"I'm so lonely, I'm desperately looking for companionship. I'll grasp any chance that comes my way in desperate hope that I'll find it"

Tuesday 12th July 2005:
"This morning, I found 50p in my purse! So I bought a Mars Bar. Today's been a good day"

Friday 15th July 2005:
"When we got to town, we went to New Look and I got some knickers"

Monday 18th July 2005:
"I learnt a lesson: never trust anyone!! I didn't anyway, but the one time I do..."

Tuesday 19th July 2005:
"Myles is being a brat. He come in, demands to watch his TV and tries to bite my hands when I ask to watch Slipknot. Just the one song"

"I now have a friend who I love, trust completely, and will always have fun with in the form of Marie... For the first time in 7 years, I have a real best friend"