Diaries 2004- 2005

Are you ready to unleash the angst? Towards the end of 2004, something happened that unlocked the bitter, angry teenager that I was to become. The first diary in this post was the one I was using when it all kicked off. Brace yourself! 

As always, excrutiating grammar and spelling is left intact. Look out for the killer apostrophe! 

Bessie (3rd August 2004- 26th December 2004)

"A bit about me:
I hope that one day I'll become famous for my diarie's like Anne Frank or Samuel Pepes. 
You are my ninth diary. My first one, Cally, last three years; My second, named Emma-Rae, lasted eight months. My third diary was called Tallulah, who I had for five months and Esmée-Lola, my fourth diary, lasted two months. I had my fifth, Felicity, for five months; Jocelyn, my sixth diary, for two months; and my seventh, named Francie, also lasted two months. My last diary, Lily-Marie, lasted just over one month. I hope you will be as faithful to me as they were.
I am sixteen years old, and have brown, shoulder-length curly hair. I wear 'antique-brown' glasses and braces. I am 5'4, with a 34D chest and an hourglass figure which I absolutely adore!
I have a wonderful boyfriend who is also 16 and lovely! I've been with him a month tomorrow and I love him very much."

3rd August 2004:
"I've seen guys in the past, but I've not had a proper boyfriend. I'd actually given up on finding love". 

6th November 2004:
"It's Marie's birthday today. I want to get her a card with Busted on and completely deface it 'cos she hates them". 

22nd November 2004:
"After, we went to the drive-thru and guess who we saw through the window? That's right- [My ex boyfriend] himself! We locked eyes for a seond then he walked away. I was like "yea that's right. You walk away." I thought I'd be upset if I ever saw him, but there was no sadness at all. All I felt was angry, raw hatred. I didn't know the meaning of hate 'till last night".


Billie-Jo (28th December 2004- 4th March 2005)

"A bit about me:
You are my tenth diary. The previous nine were: Cally, Emma-Rae, Tallulah, Esmée-Lola, Felicity, Jocelyn, Francie, Lily-Marie and Bessie.
I am sixteen years old with curly, shoulder length hair. It's naturally a mid-brown colour, but I'm in the process of dying it unnatural colours. It's currently pink. I wear cool purple glasses and braces.
I'm into punk-rock, particularly Green Day, and I'm hoping to get my bottom lip pierced as soon as my braces come off"

28th December 2004:
"I have three main requirements in a guy, well, my main requirement is that they are into cool music, but if they fulfill the next three then they most probably are: floppy brown hair, ear tunnels and a bottom lip piercing to one side. I also like them to be musical, but that's not necessary."

30th December 2004:
"I refuse to follow the crowds. I hate things as soon as they become "normal"- even if I loved them before... I just love the whole idea of being different. I have pink hair, for God's sake (well, kind of terracotta now as it's faded). Going against the crowd, standing out in a sea of faces, that sort of thing. Who wants to look the same as everyone else? Who wants to blend in? That's why I love the whole punk/ rock/ nu-metal etc scene so much- it is completely anti-acceptance". 

3rd January 2005 
"It's the most distressing, traumatic, significant event of my life, and trust me, I've had a few of those!"

Marnie (5th March 2005- 20th March 2005)

12th March 2005:
"OH MY GOD!!! I am going to see My Chemical Romance. On 9th April- 28 days time. And I am so excited!! I can't wait! It's so cool! I'm listening to them now and getting more excited by the second! Aaaaah!!"

17th March 2005:
"In English today, ...Matt asked an interesting question: If we don't want anyone to read our diaries, what's the point of keeping them? Why am I writing this? In the first entry, why did I write about my desire for my belt, earrings and bangles? There's absolutely no point- it's useless. But I still do it. It's addictive!"